For those of you who wondered where my journal went, well it crashed. I seemed to have gone through one of those periods when everything breaks. On the down side it's a hassle, but on the other hand I always have the feeling some kind of purification is taking place, making room for new, perhaps brighter things to come in. One of those is that I changed webhosts because LazyLizard, my old host were lazy and not very hospitable in the first place and were the cause of the crash, because the 50 MB I was supposed to have was cut off at 25. Who knows why, and I didn't bother to find out because I'm now under the care of Lee & Stanley from Infopulse, who are wizards besides being kind people.
For those of you who don't see their links listed, please be patient, I'll put them back on soon.
I've been anxious to post a new poem that I wrote on the first day of the year. Since I only write when the spirit moves me, I am always grateful and excited when it does. So here it is.
love, and I do mean, LOVE,
Barbara
From Under The Skin
Even before you had a name
your hands
appeared from under
the skin
as though they were born there
Each word both warm
wrapped in its furs of promise
through long white winter passage
and imploding with wild
entrapment and longing
And here again
the beginning of the year,
in the calendar’s cellular swollen belly
of memory
the water waves
as if from hands you
were still growing
Of the many faces
you try on
some are too tight
others you drown in
and the ones you choose to squeeze into
made of fear
you have embodied with hands
The ones you show
on the screen
are stretched out
like skin growing over a wound
to conceal what lies below
Above all
like particles of rising dust
shimmering in a sunlit room
when the voices go
your hands will remember
the fit of your own
face in your hands
and will turn back quietly
to become itself
We will recognize each other
like your hands know how
to stand before the emptiness
of space
and with
light
color
song
and love
give form to
what is
waiting
Well yes dear Barb it was noted you crashed. For several weeks it would appear. I actually wondered how much space you had with those large images. Any way a new year and new way forward. Good to hear Lee and Stanley are keeping you online with the way forward ironic the name of your previous company. One must look for like minded others. Good to have you back.
Cheers to you in New York
Vita