I have rebuilt this journal myself (she said proudly) and as you can see it’s almost all back up, except for the comments, which I’ll get to eventually. I thought about starting from scratch and leaving the archives in the dusty drawer of the computer, but since I’ve had a positive response and because it’s a way for me to participate in my own site I’ve put it back up.
I kept a hand written journal for many years. I used to love the whole act of writing; watching black ink roll onto stark white pages, and all those words and emotions held within a hard cover, as testimony to a world I inhabited. In rereading them I discovered a lot of pain, which often had the voice of lament, or you could also call it complaining. On the other hand, it was a way to work through what was there, and what is there is not always joyful or clear.
Recently I’ve been reflecting on and dialoguing with others on the subject of positive thinking; how one’s belief system becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. Often thought forms lurking below the surface are unconscious, and have a way of taking over precisely because they are unconscious. Their hidden identity has a power like quicksand.
Over this month I have been tracking this process in myself. A tight spot can easily send me spinning into panic, but instead I have mostly been able to stay joyfully present and work with what is in front of me. However, when a friend called me this morning, the voice that tumbled out of me reflected the presence of this insidious cold winter, and was far from positive thinking.
This is an ongoing process.
Somatic information, of which thought processes are made up of, is carried from one generation to the next and because we are all pattern addicts we need to work with ourselves again and again. But for real change to occur more than mental activity is needed. The body must recognize and be integrated in this process. Perhaps, for positive thinking to really take hold one might have to act as if is, or if you merge your consciousness with what you want to learn then, before you know it you’ll have invited in a whole new set of characters into your domain; one’s that won’t sabotage your greater purpose. Again, this is an ongoing process.
Indeed Barbara attract what you wish to become and be the best you can be. By the way your art links are fantastic. Kep on keeping on
Vita